tired huh?

tired waiting for me?
ever think about every moment dat i wait 4 him b4?
every nyte that i ve wait juz for a mcj..
evry moment dat i m really worry about him?
n everythings..sometimes..
i cant understand what people truely wan act..
i m not trying to state anythings dat apen b4..juz..i remember about dat wen they
felt da same situation but they.........................
dun noelahh..
whateverr den~~

hooo

done about the past time..today i m still holiday..
nothink to do.my roomate was returned home,the other roomate went to malay debate,so,juz she and me leave at room..
last nite they were stdying..
i still havent study..hummmmmmmmmmmm
a lots of things to do till i dun noe whta i suppose to do first..
btw,gotta go..kinna short huh?
really lazy 4 typing..
:D
preapred 4 eam!
aja2 fighting!

sayang..

i convince myself..
he will never hurt me again...
therefore..i m trying to
pomiz to myself..no matter wutz..
i will oweyz loyal to him..
i wont change my feeling on him even i nver trust him..
n even i wit a thousand boys instead..
itz ll never same as him..
coz my heartz already belong to him..
n itz ll never chnge..
even if he wanna hurts me for thousand times then..
i m going to stick wit him too..
even he hates me then..
i m gonna luv him too..
he is apart of my life..
n i m going to accept whatever happen..
i still will luv him with all of my heart..
i m truly luv him..
='(

mmmmmmmm

how i still can said dat i still can 4get him after itz apen?

fes daTe

itz was our fes date since i met him before..
myb my fault also coz aked him to wait till we finished our school fes before having our fes date..the truth is i m trying to test him whether he can stands wit me or not if we didnt ve our fes date coz i dun wan my old story happen again,...
but fortunately huh/he still wit me till today and we going to ve fes date..
i was really nervous at the taim..
i dun noe how wan to decribe wen i could face him again and touch his hand..
for my fes taim of my life i touch a boy's hand..
no matter what,i felt rather frustrated coz made diz fes date didnt sweet as we planned before..
he was so cool huh..
wen i could look at him for a long duration..
my heart felt sank..
i luv him..

Not like before

yups...we already couple back..
but..my feeling towards hm not like before...i noe..day by day...my luv towards him decreases..eventhough he tryin to convince me..
but i cant trust him anymore..
i dun want to take any risk to luv him more day by day..
sometimes,when i m thinking about him..
i cant smile anymore..my face xpression changing n sometimes my teaars
flowing down without i noticed about datz..
am i is lying on myself?
am i had done a wrong decision?
i dun noe..
i m going to follow whateva happen den..

i still..............................

i cant stand from mention that i mish him so much..
i cant sleep..i didnt noticed dat i already sen him a mcj..
at 2am...
when i woke up from my cleep..
he asked me to back to him..
i dun understand what types of game that he playing around..he told me he luv me..
he told me he mish me and treat me like before..
why he should plays around wit my feeling if he truly luv me?
i asked for time to think about..
at the end..
i decide to gve him another chance..
i dun noe..
i made that dcision not by my thinking..
not bcoz i trust him..
but bcoz..i m really hurt..
n..i still ve feeling wit him.